I am fairly doey, so I am talking to my sister.

"did you hear about Paul Rudd"
"no I heard nothing"
"his the leader of the labor party, right?"

Anyway, about that and his wife being dodgy. It is funny how he is against IR reforms and he wife uses them. So I say, "how can this guy control a country if he can't control his wife".

What day and age am I living it? 

I feel like I've put my life on hold for this job, and because of this. I am really beginning to hate this job.

In Canberra, I don't have real friends, cause I am not really me around them, and I am not free to be myself. Thus this causes me to become somewhat isolated and lonely.

I come home on Friday night, hoping to have someone I can be myself around, but everyone is out. The loneliness is starting to get on my nerves. I watch all the shows I've missed for the week, my entertainment is over and I feel the loneliness again.

I start to realise it such an effort to maintain a life as well as do good in your job. I am totally over doing good in my role. I have started to settle with the idea that I'll be leaving the company a little over a year.

I want to plan my wedding, but I don't know where to start, i've been told that once I get the dress everything comes together. I want to go dress shopping, but I don't know the places to go nor how much I can spend.

The idea of getting property is in the works, but there has been no firm decision where to buy, the forms are ridiculous to fill out.

And it just feels like no one is considerate of me.

Therefore it is such an effort to stay sober, when all I want is a drink.